Spoilers and anxiety
People tease me that I haven't seen any culturally relevant film or series and I usually excuse myself by saying that I don't have the attention span to watch an entire thing. The real reason, though, is that my anxiety is so bad that I cannot tolerate the tension that is built up in the script. I have to have the entire movie/episode thoroughly spoiled before I can watch it, because otherwise I get anxiety attacks at every little conflict.
This post brought to you by me trying to go through a single episode of Feel Good and having to pause it every 5 minutes because my heart is racing so badly. That, even after the fact that I have read the Wikipedia entry of every episode so I already know exactly what happens... I fucking hate my brain.
You are not alone with this. I have to admit, that I dont get anxiety attacks but I prefer knowing very exatcly what will happen in a movie before I watch it so it is less tense for me. I wanna chill when watching a movie and not be stressed about it. And I want to prepare myself for a good or a happy ending. Dont hate your brain. You r cool nontheless!
Thank you so much for saying this :D This is exactly how it feels - I just want to chill and enjoy the movie without stressing. This is seriously awesome to know I'm not alone with feeling this way :D