Free fall (TW for dysphoria)
Today I was feeling good about myself. One of those rare days when I was pure confidence, all day. Unbreakable.
And then it happened. My partner looked at the photo and told me that [edit: I'm deleting that part. It's just shitty and triggering and who wants that.] Not so unbreakable now, are we?
...I can't actually bring myself to type out the rest. Wrote five drafts and deleted them all, because each was one big trigger warning after the other.
It's okay now. We talked things over. But fuck this emotional shit. I just want my one day of confidence back. I know I sound like an edgelord, but I truly don't know how I'm going to look at myself tomorrow and see the confident person from the photo and not the joke/contemptible person that he saw.
You DO look super confident Like not doubt about a Thing in your mind in that Picture. I am sorry that your Partner Had Something going oh that made them Take it Out in you. Confident you deserves a day Out. I Hope there will be more to come!
He's having a hard time with all this; I honestly can't blame him. "Not a doubt about a thing in my mind" sums up really well how I felt when that photo was being taken. I hope I can get back into that headspace eventually.