wedding dress
I was going through my clothes, trying to figure out what to donate, what to sell, and what to upcycle, and I came across my wedding dress. I don't know what to do with it. Clearly I'm never going to wear it again. Part of me wants to get rid of it. This marriage is falling apart by the second, and it hurts to see it.
Part of me can still relive the joy and excitement of that day. We didn't have any money then. He was working 80 hours a week on a traineeship and the only place that would hire me with my two MSc degrees was the thrift shop. So we went for the 10 min free ceremony at 8 am on a Thursday morning, both in thrifted clothes, no rings, no witnesses, just two ladies from the minicipality. But we were so excited and so serious about those vows! The ladies thought we were so cute that they still played Mendelssohn's Wedding March on the city hall bells for us.
And now I don't know what to do with that dress. I just want to cry.
wow that sounds so hard. It's a reminder of a very special and wonderful day, on the other hand it has been overshadowed by your current experiences.
I cannot claim to know how this feels like. I only know that certain Items of past relationships did different things with me in different times of my life and it took my over 10 years to feel good about letting them go (even if it was an abusive relationship), but then it felt really certain like the right thing to do. Till then, it had a lot of bittersweet memories.
I hope you'll find a point when you know what to do, but until then: there is no shame in not being able to decide right now
Mostly I was just taken aback and a bit shaken by the sudden emotions that came up on seeing the dress. Normally I'm the first one to shake my head and laugh about how utterly fugly it is. I'm not in a hurry to get rid of it, but I definitely didn't expect to cry because of it's mere existence.